I get exhausted from traveling. And when I tell people my routine, they get exhausted for me as well. But sitting back and playing different scenarios in my head, instead of taking action in my life, is even more draining. So, I choose to be fatigued by the activities that excite me.

During a Monday in June, I had to get up at 2:30am to make it to my first flight at 4:30am. Then, I took a connecting flight to make it back home by 9:00am and start work.

The schedule sounds like the exception. But it’s actually the rule if I want to balance my day job and make the most out of my free time.

My day ended after a dinner with a friend. At least, that was the plan.

At 9pm, I headed home. I thought I would crash. But I spent another 3 hours watching Youtube clips of my favourite TV shows.

Have you ever had the experience of rewatching an episode you’ve seen multiple times? It was Friends back then. Now, it’s RuPaul’s Drag Race.

I love those TV shows. And they serve me well.

But I got more tired sitting on the couch (especially with episodes on repeat) than the entirety of the weekend, where I had barely slept and rested. I was fully conscious and aware. But I felt paralysed. And the regrets would just play from that moment until the next morning.

Doing things is not easy. But I find not doing anything even more difficult, especially for the mind.

The trip to Berat happened on June 2022.